Waiting to Live
I was struck, the other day, by the sudden realization that I often times feel like I am just on the verge of something. Like there is a real life just beyond my grasp- a life that I am not currently living. It's always something, you know. When I didn't have a boyfriend, I thought real life would begin once I had one. When I was a student, my real life would begin once I graduate. When I was broke, life wouldn't start until the money came rolling in. My mind has created this fantasy me: I am successful, happy, have all the money I need, have a great career, family, and little to worry about. This fantasy is always hanging right in front of me, like a carrot dangling from a stick. I mean, I can taste it, it's so close, if I could just... reach... I have been following this fantasy for as long as I can remember. But until then, am I just supposed to wait to live? Deepak Chopra says it well: "You have to give up the idea that you must go from A to B. There i