It Begins With a Thought

Yesterday was rough. My mother and I transported her mother from a care facility in Federal Way to her senior living home in Vancouver, WA. This is approximately a 4-hour excursion. A long time to be in a car with my grandmother. This may sound harsh, but my grandmother is a difficult person to be around. Between her constant complaining, her biting judgments about everyone around her, and her persistent need for validation as a person, it can take a lot out of you just to sit next to her. This isn't new, its how she has always been, except now that she is in her 80's, every part of this is magnified. Sure, she has a lot to complain about. And because I am NOT her, I cannot judge, and say that if I were in her shoes, I would feel differently. But because she is so caught up in her misery, all things beautiful pass her by, as if she were a stone wall. Nothing can penetrate, all things just slide away. Her mindset has her mired in a pit of lonesome sorrow. I ...